life

every day somewhere to be,
emotions high than low.
save the world
remain normal and content
where do we go from here?

5 days til lift off!

well, the send off party went really well. Close to 100 people in our house.
Black jack dealer, prizes, entourage.
A great time had by all ( I hope)! So many supporters, true friends.
The float is amazing- "Opening a can of whoop ass!" Use your imagination!
Can't wait to have "Eric" back.

ahhhh , the husband

Who would have thought that the guy who courted the Miss America contestant, bike across the country for the american heart association ----would( marry and reproduce), become a professional eater ?
who knew my man would have Wingbowl aspirations?!?!?!??
Our lives revolve aound----
float, cotume, entourage ( I spelled it correctly),
send off party. bus, tshirts,
babysitter, alcohol,
defeat/victory, getting KATROCKET to travel for 1 stupid American exploit.

Last year total Wingbowl expenditures approx. $2000.00.
This year I am budgeting 500.00.
We will see how it goes.

I ain't no P.T.O parent

Call me crazy but do f---n mothers without jobs have anything better to do than sit around and gossip and creat problems!!!
These women are crazy! I keep feeling guilty that I never have the energy to go to these meetings after workingin a school all day, and when I finally listen to what they I have to say---- Holy toledo!!!! There are men losing their lives in Iraq, people without homes, drug addiction, cancer, etc. and they have the nerve to kavitz over the fifth grade pancake breakfast and who is bringing the syrup!!!!
I ain't no P.T.O parent.

shit happens

packing for the mountains.
yearly trip.
6 hour drive.
tubing, snowmobiling, skiing, ice skating, horseback riding, bar
no snow :(

FINALLY!!!!!!

It took a few years, a tour of duty in Afganistan, and a diamond ring, but baby sister is finally tying the knot and I am the MATRON of honor!! How OLD does that sound ?!?!?!? MATRON!!!!! Thrilled anyway, congrats baby girl- you rock!

birthdays

so today was steakbellies birthday. it used to be such a momentus occasion. one that he rightfully deserves!!!
i am BIG on birthdays, it 's the one day that you can celebrate yourself and not have to share with anyone.
You are either celebrated or not. i REALLY try to make sure that all the special people in my life are acknowledged on their birthday.
However, 5 years ago, the day after SB's birthday, my most admired friend/godmother of my first born, at the age of 46, died, literally in my arms, in her beautiful home a block from the beach. ( A home she got from her malpractice settlement for not identifying stage 3 breast cancer) , and Gosh darnit, every year I remember, and i am cranky and solemn.
I rejoice and celebrate for SB, he is my most favorite person in the world!! However, I can't help but remember asking him to drive us (me and godmother) from the hospital so that she could die in front of her chrstmas tree, on his birthday 5 years ago. (I was her custodial something or other)
He of course, in his sensative steakbellie fashion, agreed. That night, in front of the tree I held her in my arms in a hospital bed (we wheeled had wheeled into her living room), at 5:20 am and watched her grasp for her last breath. i encouraged her to let go and told her it was better where she was going. I was angry and wanted to encourage her to fight but I knew it was to late. She needed peace.
It was just the 2 of us. At 6:00 am I called SB, "She's gone", I said. He made it from Pa to the beach in NJ in less that an hour andthrew shells into the ocean with me. As always, by my side.
I love you SB- Happiest of all birthdays- cheers to many more.

jealousy

one must trust in true love

whewww....

we can all relax now.
Congratulations.
you done good kid

a little nervous

wingbowl
you love it, your beginning,
you want it,you can taste it
so much red tape
not a true declaration of ability
you can do it,
2 feet of meat and vegatables
with a kick of starch and acid
7 seconds to spare on an off day
you can do it
i'll reserve the bus
if not
there is always Glassboro
what a homecming that would be.
BFF